The Lord has been doing a lot in my life since I last talked about my personal growth. He keeps taking me back to the book of Ephesians. I swear this book has been everywhere the last two months. I’ve read through the book of Ephesians multiple times now since I’ve gone on the race. As I wrote in my Keys for the Journey blog, which you can read here, He keeps bringing me back to Ephesians 6:18-20. To be praying for a boldness to share the gospel and also just to have a conversation period with the locals I’m near.
Some other verses that were given to me that pair very well with the ones above is Ephesians 3:14-19.
“For this reason I kneel before the Father from whom every family in heaven and earth is named. I pray that He may grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power in the inner man through His Spirit, and that the Messiah may dwell in your hearts through faith. I pray that you, being rooted and firmly established in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the length and width, height and depth of God’s love, and to know the Messiah’s love that surpasses knowledge, so you may be filled with all the fullness of God.”
Paul was praying this over the Ephesians but when I was given these verses by someone God was telling me to pray them over myself. So I have been, and it shows me that everything that I do should come from the power of the Holy Spirit, from the love of Christ.
For example, I started praying that I’m so established in God’s love that the boldness to share the gospel I’ve been praying for will just happen in my conversations. That I could be talking to anyone about anything and Jesus would just come up naturally in conversation. That He comes up in those conversations because He is the thing I love the most.
Besides just evangelism, I’ve been asking God for just more of Him. To make me more like Him. To break my heart for what breaks His. Give me a greater desire to go into His Word and to know Him.
Just recently God has been calling me to just be in His presence. Just sit there in silence and wonder of Him. Not to ask for anything or seek anything from Him but to just desire Him. This is hard to do. Random thoughts coming to mind, and wanting to ask God for things. Not even bad things, but things that are within His will and would glorify Him. There is a time to ask for those things of course but in those moments that the Lord is calling me to just sit before Him in just awe of His Glory. Every time God is telling me to get into that posture of just sitting before Him, I hear Him say,
“Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10a
However, your relationship with Jesus is right now I would challenge you to take it deeper. Genuinely pray a prayer asking God to align your heart to His or to break your heart for what breaks His or something like that. When you do this with a genuine desire for the Lord, He will meet you where you are at and will take you deeper.
